Chapter 4

"OH THE LORD! SOMEBODY SAVE US! THE ROOF IS FALLING APART!" Yazeed shouted. "What? What's falling? We're gonna die? What? Hey! No!" I cried, my voice cracking and sounding as sleepy as I never heard. "HAHAHAHAHAH! My god I wanted to go on, but now I can't cause of your face! I'll never regret getting this recorded! Oh Lulu you look hilarious!" Yazeed managed to say these words between his laughs after falling on the ground and holding his stomach. "Omg you must be kidding me! Can I shoot you? I actually thought it was falling! I hate you! Why did you do that?" I said, and started crying despising the fact that he just scared my guts. He managed to stop his whole stupid childish giggles and laughs then said "Well, Lulu I just like kinda missed you :(! It's 2:00 pm and you're still asleep, I need some time to hang out around my little sister!" I thought that was sweet, but I was still mad cause sleep is sacred and I hate anyone who interrupts it "Well, you could have done it in a better and more quiet way!" I said getting up of my bed and heading to the bathroom. "Sorry :(? Hey, how about you invite the girls and bader and we all go out for a late lunch or something? On the place, so my little angel won't get mad?" "I'm still mad, but okay I'll call them, but promise when we're done we'd come back and swim all together?" "Fine, if they all want to!" "Okay, go get ready and I'll call Leen!" "No, call Shaikha first!" "Dude I'll call them both it literally makes no difference who I call first!" "Huff!" "Just go get ready!" He went to his room frowning, I unlocked my phone, and found some twitter notifications, and what'sapp notifications, but I didn't feel like checking them out, so I called Shaikha and she said she'll see where Bader is, then they'll come over. And Leen said there isn't a driver so we have to pick her up. I got the swimming pool's bathrooms ready with towels, shampoos, swimming suits, and shower gells. I also decided to wear a plain white t-shirt and red ombre shorts. I didn't apply anything on my face, I just applied a no-colour lip balm. Shaikha and Bader arrived in 30 minutes. "Where's Leen?" asked Shaikha "Her driver's busy or something, so we'll pick her up!" Bader seemed relieved after hearing that. "Okay, let's grab dad's car since it's bigger and has more space in!" said Yazeed. "Um yeah sure..." I said trying to hide the fact that I'm still mad about the whole 'second wife' thing with dad. I got a buzz which meant I had a new conversation on what'sapp, so I unlocked my phone and scrolled to what'sapp.
Yazz'M: I want Shaikha to sit at the front seat :(?
Lau: Yazeed! How can I make that happen? Her brother's here!
Yazz'M: I don't know please find a way I'm begging!
Lau: Fine, but you owe me one!
Yazz'M: I will if she sists in front!!! I LOVE YOU!
Lau: Suck up, anyways we should stop texting it's getting awkward.
"Hey Shayoukh, can you open this water bottle for me please?" "I'll open it, Shayoukh's caviar polsih isn't dry yet!" Bader said. Gosh Bader why why man why? "Oh, thank you!" "There." He handed me the bottle. "Merci!" "De rien!" He said with a smile. I tried to think of something to let her sit in front! "Shayoukh!" "Yeah?" She said and turned around to face me. "Ohh! Omg I'm so so terribly sorry omg that's my bad I'm so clumsy agh!!!" I tried to not laugh cause i dropped water at her abaya pretending that it was by mistake. "omg now how am I supposed to sit in the car Luluu? Huff don't worry it's okay I guess..." She said frowning. "You can sit in the front seat!" "Yeah, I think it's better if you do!" Confirmed Bader. "Yazeed was jumping from behind and mouthing "THANK YOU!" to me. "Okay..." She said looking a bit more cheered up. "Okay guys, let's go to the car now!" Said Yazeed trying to hide his face tearing smile. Once we got into the car they all started talking, I had my earbuds in, so I couldn't really concentrate on what they were saying. I had the music on shuffle, and closed my eyes to allow the memories of all the times my dad and I went out in this car to just crash in. I remember when he used to suddenly take me out for breakfast, as a father and daughter time only! I remember the times he used to take me out for ice cream whenever he sees me sad and tell me how precious am I being her daddy's little princess. I remember when he suddenly knocks on my bedroom door and shouts "Daddy's taking you shopping princess!" and brings me back home with the car loaded with all the items I buy for myself only. I actually miss him! I think I should become closer to my mom! My thoughts were interrupted by Bader shaking my shoulder asking me to remove my head off of the window so Leen would be able to come in. "Oh, hey Leen!" "Hey babe, why is Shaikha sitting in the front seat?" "Lulu dropped water on her by mistake!" Bader said then laughed. I just faked a smile. "Ohh Lulu never stops being clumsy hahah!" Said Leen then poked my side. I faked another smile. "Hey! I forgot to bring a swimming suite! Please don't kill me Lulu?" Suddenly said Shaikha as she turned around to face me. "Oh, it's okay I can lend you one of mine or you can even find some of yours and Leen's at my room!" I replied then put my earbuds back into my ear and closed my eyes again to get all the thoughts back. When suddenly Yazeed stopped the car and said we're here already. He parked in front of a small restaurant that my dad always used to bring us to saying it's his childhood bestfriend's mother's restaurant, and that she's Italian, and she opened it so she'd have something to make her forget about all the bad stuff happening in her life starting with the fact that she's away of her family, but he stopped bringing us here about 4 years ago, claiming she died, and now her daughter is responsible of the restaurant,  so it just lost it's special place in his heart. It felt so weird, but I just hugged Yazeed and tried to show him I was so happy, while actually I didn't want to eat here, I don't want all the memories to stroak back. I told Yazeed I needed to go to the wc and I'm gonna take the girls with me, he said that Bader and him will be waiting for us at a table. When we went there I just broke down, I just started crying rivers and rivers! They hugged me so hard and started asking non-stop what's wrong and why was I crying... "How could he? How dare he say he loved us and I was his little princess, but manage to stay that long without even talking to us? He obviously hates us! What if they got divorced? I don't want that! This whole thing is just too hard, why did he tell me? Wouldn't it be better if I just didn't know about anything?" I almost shouted out those words as if it was their fault. "Sweetie, grown ups do things for some reasons that we don't always have to know! It's okay to be hurt, but it's not okay to hold in things for too long! I didn't wanna pressure you the first time you talked about it cause I know it was a new thing to you, so it'd be a bit hard for you to spell it all out when you're in that situation! You just need to cool yourself down, and you can talk and say everything when we're back home, everyone's here for you Lulu! You don't need to worry about it!" Said Shaikha in her usual mature and confident tone then hugged me again. "He has been away for a week, he's gonna call, don't worry!" Said Leen afterwards. "I'm just not used to this! It's too hard!" I said then shook my head in disapproval of everything that resembles cheating on your family. "We're here for you!" Said Shaikha and Leen in a united tone. "I love you guys!" I said then hugged them. "We must go out now, the boys have been waiting for a little long." Said Shaikha. "Okay, but hey I kinda dropped water on you by purpose!" I said. "What! Why?" Said Shaikha looking as confused as I've never seen her before. "Yazeed told me he wanted you to sit in the front seat!" I replied between my sobs. "Really?" Smiled Shaikha shyly. "Yeah, and he even asked me to tell you that he's kind of crazy about you, but I told him that he had to do that by his own, so pretend like you don't know!" "Omg Lulu you just made my whole year, I love you!" giggled Shaikha before giving me a bone crushing hug. I wiped my face with a cold wet tissue then left to the table. We got home, so the girls and I went into the pool's bathrooms and got changed into our swimsuites. We went out to find Yazeed and Bader already swimming, so the girls joined, but I told them I'll check who talked to me cause I haven't checked my phone since I woke up. I opened What's app and found a message from my dad saying he missed us and he wants to skype with me soon. I told him I missed him too, and I'll try to skype with him either when I have time. Other conversations weren't really important, but I answered all those who talked to me. I checked twitter and found 5 dm's from Aziz:
10:00am "Morning Lulu :D!"
11:30pm "Okay, I suppose you're not up yet?"
1:00pm "Yeah, I'm sure about that now, unless if you're ignoring me...."
4:00pm "Okay, seriously o.o? What are you made of? Sleeping for all that time! I'm kinda worried! Please answer as soon as you see this, even if just with a period!"
6:00pm "I'm too worried! Is there anything going on Laura? Can you please answer?"
*Buzzz* New dm, from Aziz too:
6:30pm "If I'm annoying you please just tell me, but I'm really worried if there's anything wrong going on!"
Okay sweet, but too soon what... "I'm so super sorry for answering just now, I woke up at 2, then went out with my friends and brothers, and I just checked my phone! Sorry!" He instantly answered with "You freaked my guts Laura! I seriously was too worried! Oh, that's nice! Did you have fun? I thought you had just one brother? Yazeed!" "Sorry again! Yeah, I did, thank you! How did you know my brother's name :|? Yeah, but I consider my best friend's brother my brother too..." I wonder how he knew about Yazeed? "Yazeed was actually my childhood best friend, I used to come to your house all the time when we were in 6th grade! Ask him about me :p! And please tell me if he has a twitter account too, cause I searched for his name and there were too many results, so I was too lazy to search!" "Omg! You're Abdulaziz the guy who used to bring his dog all the time and chase me around with it? You look so different! I can't believe this!!! Actually, he doesn't but I'll tell him about you!" "Hahahah, yep that's me :D! I know, you too!You're like all grown and stuff! Ohh, great then!" "Yazeed! Do you remember that Aziz dude? The one that used to bring his dog and chase me around with it to scare me? He followed me on twitter and started talking to me, and he wants to talk to you!" "Yeah! Sure, send him my number! And tell him that it's been so long and I say hi!" Said Yazeed while holding Shaikha's hands so she won't splash any water at his face while he's talking. "Okay!" So I told Aziz what Yazeed asked me to say, and excused myself since I wanted to swim too. I jumped in the pool and started playing with them, I left the water in half an hour cause I got bored before them all, Bader and Leen got bored too, so we all left, which meant Yazeed and Shaikha were at the pool all by their own. Leen, Bader, and I went to the shower rooms to obviously shower.
While Yazeed finally decided to start letting out his feelings after stopping the whole splashing thing since some water got into his eye...
Yazeed: "So... Lulu told you, ha?" "Told me what?" Smiled Shaikha. Yazeed laughed then said: "I know I don't look that smart, but I'm not that stupid either Shayoukh, I know girls don't spend that much time in a bathroom unless if they talked about something important!" "Ha? Umm..... She was upset about your father's situation too!" Said Shaikha then regretted saying too right away. "So she did tell you!" giggled Yazeed. Shaikha didn't say a word further and she just looked down shyly. Yazeed went closer to her, turned her face into his side, lift her chin, so she'd look at him in the eye and said "Look, I really love you, and I have been in love with you for the past 4 years, but I could never talk about it! You're the smartest girl I've ever known! You know, I feel like my heart shatters into bits and pieces when Lulu says you're upset and I have to take her to you, cause I wish I was the one who could come to draw your beautiful smile back into your face! I've never been with any girl, not cause I'm not a man enough, but because I never want my emotions to go for waste with anyone, I want to put myself, my whole self just for you! I don't want us to act wrong, I seriously want you to be my wife!" Shaikha's eyes almost popped out of their place, so she just moved her head to stop the awkwardness, but Yazeed turned her face again into his side and said these words in a lower voice: "You've got all the time in the world to decide if you wanna be my partner in life or not, princess!" then he backed off a little, and led her to the pool's ladder so they'd leave, he stood behind her "Ladies first!" Shaikha's stomach felt like she had rockets instead of butterflies. her heartbeats were as loud as drums, as fast as a school bell. she just went up, and walked slowly waiting till he leaves the pool too, then rushed back to him, hugged him so hard, leaning her head on his chest, which made her hair touch his chest, her curly beautiful hair that he insanely loved to look at, and whispered: "I've loved you since I was 12 years old, I don't want the time of the world to go for waste, I want to spend it with you!" then she shut her eyes hardly and tightened her hug even more. He rest his chin on her head, hugged her back and said "You don't know happy I am to hear these words from you! I've waited for so long! But we have to tell your family, we can get engaged now and get married whenever you want, cause other than that, I don't want to get you involved in any awkward situations!" She pulled herself out of the hug and said "I accept whatever comforts you Yazeed!" Then she ran to the shower room, waited till Bader left, then shut the door, and rushed to Leen and me and told us everything. "Omg my brother's romantic! That's so cute! I'm happy for you both!" "I'm so happy for you sweetie! But how come Bader didn't say anything? Are you sure he likes me guys?" Said Leen with an obvious frown on her face. "Aww! I'm gonna make sure you two sit alone a lot tonight, okay?" I answered. "It was magical! God I'm so happy you guys!" Said Shaikha actually looking as happy as I've never seen anyone like! "We're even happier for you!" Said Leen. Shaikha and I showered quickly. Then left the shower rooms. "Congratulations sister, I'm happy for you" Said Bader to Shaikha then hugged her so tight. "Oh, haha thank you!" "I know Yazeed is a good guy, so I'm okay with you two being together, even before marriage!" "You're the best Bader!" "Omg you people are too dramatic! Tell Leen you like her if you were that okay with everything you wuss!" I said then bumped his shoulder. "Ha? Who told you I like her? What are you girls FBI of the mind?" Said Bader looking afraid of me. "Everyone knows, but you two don't know you like each other!" "She likes me? Seriously? Stupid, lame, lifeless me?" "I know, she's blind, but I can't stand in the way of her happiness!" "You're too mean Lulu I hate you, I don't even know why are we two friends!" "Cause you love me Badoori :D!" "Yeah, okay right..." We went inside to the living room, and we found mom. "Hello! Welcome to your second house!" she said hugging me, then she started welcoming Leen, Shaikha, and Bader as if it's their first time here. "Mama chill, they're literally home, you don't have to worry!" I said after seeing her somehow on her nerves. "I know dear, I know, but you still have to make everyone around you comfortable!" "Okay mama, but just chill" I said which caused her to laugh then slightly pinch my nose which made me feel like a 5 year old... We watched Dumb And Dumber cause I really wanted to laugh, they left at 12:45, so I headed to my room and got into my pyjamas, when I was about to lay down, I thought why not go to my mom and talk to her in a friendly daughter way, so I asked Yazeed to come too. We went there and sat on her bed, "Hey mom!" "Hello munchies, just a second I'm emailing Melissa an important document for a new company that's trying to show us it's products!" "Ah, done!" She said and shut her laptop off. "So, what's going on in your lives?" Said mom, smiling and putting her long light brown waves into a loose bun. "I invited Aziz Al-X for lunch tomorrow! I finally did what you asked me, and confronted Shaikha with my love, I want us to get engaged, I feel like the happiest person in the world!" Said Yazeed then smiled looking too happy. "I'm happy for you dear! And you, my little precious princess? Or you still think I hate you, and can't understand you?" "Ha? How did you know that mama? I've never talked about any of that to anyone!" I said confused. "You think I've spent 10 years, trying to be the closest to you for waste? A mommy knows everything baby!" She said then messed up my hair. "Umm, well there isn't anything I feel is important enough to share! How about we Skype with dad?" "You can skype with him tomorrow sweetie, he's busy with Sina, she's sick a little!" "WHAT? YOU KNOW ABOUT SINA TOO?" "I just told you a mommy knows everything, pay more attention sweetie!" "But, but? How?" "I think I spent enough years with your father to know if he's hiding something or not!" "And you're so calm about it?" "Well, he told me about two years ago, so I wasn't as upset as I was when he thought I didn't know, and after he knew I knew about it all along, he apologised a billion times, I told him I lost half of my appreciation to him when I knew about that, but I didn't talk cause I've got you guys to raise in a good environment!" "Mom, you're, umm... I don't know, a legend? I'm so much more relieved knowing you know now!" She just smiled after hearing that. "How about you sleep here tonight precious?" "Sure!" "You too Yazeed?" "Nah, I can't sorry, you two have fun! Goodnight!" "Goodnight" We answered back. He left, then mom held me between her arms, started singing a little lullaby she used to sing to me when I was a 3 year old while playing with my hair, soon enough I started dreaming.

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Chapter 3

I woke up at 12 pm, and kept wondering and thinking of what to do for the day. I went down and made myself a white cheese and cucumber sandwich and took a glass of milk. I found mom sitting in the living room, so I decided to sit there and eat my food silently, probably talk to her a little if she said something, or leave silently if she didn't talk about anything. I sat on the couch taking small bits of the sandwich and eating them. My mom was soaked into watching news, so she didn't talk. I finished my food and left. I decided to call Areej, who moved out of my school like two years ago, but we still managed to stay in touch. I invited her over to my house. I decided I wanted to straighten my hair, so I thought I'd shower by now, and I'll be done in two hours or so which would be perfect since she's coming at 7, so I'll have a couple of hours to make sure everything's tidy and in place. I was done with my hair and simple makeup which is made of nude lipstick, mascara, and a winged eyeliner at about 5. I decided to wear a a short baby pink dress. I went to ask Mary to put everything in place at the garden since I wanna sit there. Areej arrived at 7:15 or 7:20 in a gorgeous long-sleeved, yet short white dress, and she had her long black hair into a sleek pony tail, accompanied with a thick winged eyeliner, thick mascara, and a dark red lipstick. "My god girl, you lookin gorgeous! What happened to 'ew makeup' Areej? She gone gurl? God am I pleased to see you this way, I'm lovin the new one!" I said in a bit of a flirtatious tone. "A smart little girl grew into a beautiful young lady, no more my dear" she said in a British accent. She has a very lovely British accent thanks to her British mother who takes them to England almost every 2 months, and makes sure they spend at least a month of the summer there. I was lucky enough to find her here, she came back from England last week since Ramadan is in about two weeks. We talked about every single thing that got into our mind, then she asked "Hey, um I wanted to ask you about those tweets you tweeted like two days ago? What was wrong with you? You seemed just as shattered and broken into pieces as a broken mirror! What happened?" She asked out of curiosity. My face turned yellow cause I remembered that Sina woman that stole my dad away, but I tried to hide it as hard as I could and said "Which tweets?" trying to act as if I forgot. "You know you can't trick me, especially after that yellow I'm-hiding-something face Lulu, what happened?" She said sounding more serious than before. "Um, can we not talk about it? Like please? I don't want to ruin my night." I said, tears almost running down my cheeks. "Is it that big?" She asked. I just looked at the ground. "Oh, I'm so sorry dear, you can tell me whenever you feel like it, but I just wanna assure you that I'm always here for you! Not just because I'm not that close to you anymore means I forgot about you! Your name is always in the top of my head when I'm asked about my closest friends!" Said Areej, trying to make me feel better and make up for her question. "Aww, sweetie I never forgot you! I just don't want to go around talking about this! I'm just not ready for everyone's reaction! Whenever I get used to the situation, I promise I'll tell you! I'm really sorry if I made you feel like I forgot you, or that you don't mean the same to me anymore" I told her sounding as sincere as I ever could. Areej pulled me in for a hug. "Ugh Areej you won't believe how much I miss your hugs! My god, no one gives hugs as you do!" I said trying to even tighten my hug more. "Hahahah, well I'm all yours to hug now" Areej said, then pulled out of the hug. We decided to take some pictures, then go and either watch a movie or stalk people on twitter, so we ended up watching Cheaper by the dozen 2. She left at 11:30. I stayed at my room stalking people on twitter and texting Shaikha. I suddenly got a new follower, I decided to follow him back after seeing his tweets and so. He dm'd me like right away with a simple "Hey!" I answered "Hello ;p?" "How are you doing :D?" "Um, fine I guess? How about you?" "Oh, I'm great!" I ignored that, but he dm'd me in five minutes saying "So, what are you doing?" Oh, new friends, awesome! I thought to myself while replying to him with "Bleh, nothing, I'm just trying to escape the bits of boredom that got into my body after my friend left! How about you?" "Well, I've been bored for the whole day, and I'm still looking for an escape, so if you found something, like tell me or something? ;p" "Okay, Aziz *if I may call you, I'll make sure I do ;p!" "Oh, sure, if not Aziz what are you going to call me hahah? What's your most prefered name to be called with, Laura?" Okay, he's fine I thought to myself again "Well, people only call me Laura when it's serious hahah! I'm known by Lulu mostly c:!" "Well, Laura, can you help me in something?" I felt like I got an inner poke in my stomach and answered "Um, sure? What's wrong?" He waited for 10 minutes then typed "Well, you see I've been like, I don't know seriously, umm... Bored, so I decided to have some fun putting you on your nerves! Hahahahah! I wish I could see the look on your face right now!" So not funny, I don't like this dude I don't think we'll be friends what the hell "Ha, ha, ha? If not of boredom I would have blocked you by now you coconut head! You made me get inner pokes stupid!" "I'm sorry, it's just I'm terribly bored, I hope you didn't get really mad?" "Hahahah, everyone gets a turn, aye mate?" "Okay, we're equal Lulu, very funny." "Eh, I know man! Anyway, I think I'll sleep now, so goodnight buddy c:!" "I like your confidence dude hahahah! Alright then, we'll talk tomorrow, Laura. x" Okay, he's nicer this way, I'll reconsider our friendship. I put my hair into a messy braid, and wore a plain white crop top and black boxers. I layed on my bed to allow the thoughts to start like every day of my life. Only this time, I started thinking how life would be if I had a lover. Wouldn't it be fun if I had this funny boyfriend who's more of a best friend than just a boyfriend? Wouldn't it be fun for him and Yazeed to be friends or something? Or is Yazeed gonna be all uptight? But he's okay with me having guy friends for now... Well, after what happened, I think he'd have a point. I wonder if he ever had a girlfriend! I must ask him some day... I haven't seen him today, I miss him! Ugh, my throat's getting dry I need some water bottles in my room, now I'll have to go downstairs to bring water. I managed to crawl out of my bed and get to the kitchen, I saw Yazeed sitting on the chairs outside at the garden through the kitchen's widnow. I went outside and almost shouted "YAZEEED! I missed you!" and I ran over to him and hugged him. "Oh hey hey, how are you doing?" He said while hugging me back. "It feels like I haven't seen you in ages? What did you do today?" "Well, just the usual, I went to Fahad's house..." He said while his face showed he was hiding something, "That's all?" I asked looking right into his eyes. "Yes! What did you do?" he said trying to change the subject. "My friend, Areej, came over, tell me what happened, I know you've got more to say!" I answered. He looked at me his eyes almost crying out 'Do I have to do this?' "Well, my friends think I'm gay because I don't have a girlfriend, and I've never had one, but I've got a lot of friends, and I end my friendship with any girl that tries to be more than a friend with me! It disgusts me how my friends think! Okay what if I just simply don't want a girlfriend? Not all people have accepting families! I don't want to get a girl involved with me without her family knowing about me! I have karma to worry about!" He said looking so confused! "Have you told them that?" I asked. "If I did, they'd make sure I'm gay. Guys are complicated Lulu, even more than girls!" He said, then let out a smile "But I'm sure you'll set me up with my future wife just soon enough, cause you're my amazing little angel, right?" He tried to give me a puppy-eyed look which made me bust out laughter, then I said "You gotta tell Shaikha you like her yourself, I can do nothing about that! But I know for sure she likes you too! She always gets excited when you're around!" I said. "For real? Shaikha likes me? Are you being serious or not?" He asked looking as excited as I have never seen him. "She does!" I let out a giggle. "God bless your beautiful soul you're the best sister" He said then almost crushed my bones trying to pull me in for a hug. "Okay okay amen, but just leave me before you crush my bones!" "Sorry, I just got a little excited!" Said Yazeed. "I know, I know hahah! Anyway, I'll go sleep now, so goodnight lova boy!" I hit his shoulder and laughed while walking away. I got to my bed, and thoughts kept changing till they ended into dreams.

Okay, so I'm finally done! I'm so super sorry y'all for keeping you waiting this long! I just got super drowned in occasions, then to school and stuff, so I couldn't concentrate and put my thoughts into a good chapter. I hope this chapter won't let any of you down. Please tell me what you think, cause it seriously matters! Even if it was a negative opinion, please just tell me whatever! I didn't really check if there were any grammar/spelling mistakes, cause I'm in kind of a hurry, if you found anything just dm me on @SoCalled Blogger, please. Thank you, and never stop smiling c: xx

Chapter 2

I woke up next day to Leen's laughing over Shaikha's snoring and drooling face. I laughed along then took a picture of Shaikha, and got up to wash up and do my morning buisness. While I was showering I remembered that I wanted to ask Leen about her awkwardness at Shaikha's last night, so I tried to finish quicker than usual and ask her before Shaikha wakes up to know what's behind her creepy attitude. I finished and got dressed, then got out and found Shaikha still asleep, so I asked Leen to come downstairs with me for breakfast. I asked Marry to chop some cucumbers and bring it with yogurt to the garden where Leen and I would be sitting. I went to Leen who was laying on the grass enjoying the sun. "Ellow love!" I said cheerfully, "Oh, hola mi amor" answered Leen with her eyes shut enjoying the fact that sun rays were warming up her tanned skin. "Get your head off the grass, there's a thing I wanna discuss with ya!" "Ugh, can't you talk while I'm laying down dude?" I gave her the 'you know the answer's no' look, so she got up and looked at me with her almond shaped dark grey eyes waiting for what I'm about to say. "Leen I wanna know why did you get all creeped out and started acting so awkward when you saw me laughing with Bader last night at Shaikha's?" I said out of curiosity. She cleared her throat and looked down then said "I never thought it was that obvious... Um Lulu, I kinda hm I don't know how to say this? You see, I kinda accidentally had a crush on him for the last two years and I got jealous when I saw him laughing and joking around you but not notice me! I'm really sorry I know it sounds stupid, but I was just jealous! I mean you're my sister and I love you, and you know that but it killed me a little inside to see him ignoring my existence!" she said in a bit of a 'I know I'm pathetic' tone put in her sweet voice. I looked at her in a confused look then I let out a giggle and said "I really can't see why you got jealous! You know you're the prettiest between us, and Bader is my brother from another mother, I never see myself liking him or flirting with him! Plus, haven't you ever noticed his stares at you when you're soaked into doing something? Don't you remember when Shaikha's younger sister Basma spilled coffee on you by mistake how Bader reacted? Don't you remember how he shouted at Basma telling her how stupid and reckless she is! Come on! You can't be that stupid not to notice he obviously likes you and treats me just like Shaikha, or probably even more as a sister!" She smiled shyly then said "You think so? Does he really like me?" "Of course he does stupid!" I said supportingly "And since when do we have secret crushes? Why didn't you tell me about him! We must tell Shaikha! She'll laugh her guts out knowing her stupid brother has secret admirers hahahh!" "Huff shut up!!! I don't know it just didn't feel right to talk about it! I'll kill you if you told Shaikha Lulu! And he's not stupid, cut that out! Wallah he's amazing!" she said while her cupid bow's shaped full lips turned into a smile. "Awwweee somebody's whipped! You know I'll tell Shaikha either you approved it or not hahahah! You look so cute talking about him and stuff hahahah! My god didn't you find any other guy hahahah? Bader? Why hahahah?" I said while my stomach started hurting cause of laughing. She gave me such a threatning look that made me hold my mouth to stop the laughter cause she freaked me out. "But no seriously he's so adorable with those beautiful wide brown eyes! Those mouthwatering six packs with the sexy tanned skin! That eye-tearing smile that gets two dimples following it! He has a beautiful soul Lulu! Why can't you see it? God some people are so blind to notice beauty!" She said staring into the sky probably imagining his goofy face. "HAHAHAHAHAH!!! Oh my godd!!! You should see your face!!!! Someone's seriously whipped! This is so hilarious! When will Shaikha wake up! She must see you all dreamy and talking about bader that way! Ahh I have to go the toilet! I'll be right back, tata lovee!" I said and got up right away running my way to the toilet. "REMIND ME TO NEVER TELL YOU ANYTHINGG!!!!" Leen shouted while I was running. I kept laughing like a lunatic while I was running and turned around and said "You can't you'll always tell me everything hahah..." when suddenly I bumped into something and fell on the floor "Shit Yazeed didn't you find a better place to be, why are you in front of me, didn't you see me running? Ugh seriously?" "You're too clumsy, it's not my fault! I've never seen someone running without looking ahead of them" he said then let out a laugh and extended his hand to help me get up, I got up "Shut up and move I need the toilet!!!" And I pushed him away and kept running. I finished what I had to do then went back and found Yazeed, Shaikha, and Leen talking and laughing. "Hey hey shh she's here" Yazeed said trying to tease me. "Ha ha, so funny. Anywayy, Yazeeed, you know you're my favourite person in the world, right?" I frowned and tried to get my wide dark brown eyes into puppy eyes. "Hey, what's up with your eyes?" He said "Ohh I get it, what do you want?" he raised an eyebrow after saying that. "Can you take us out? We're really bored and we wanna go out!" I said in a begging tone. "Okay sure, my friends are all sleeping anyway, so I don't have anything to be doing" Said Yazeed. Shaikha laughed then said "So if you had anything to do, you wouldn't take us out?" "Well, no you see I would, but I probably wouldn't even be here to begin with, so... But anyway, where do you wanna go?" He said trying to change the subject. "I wanna eat!" Said Shaikha holding her stomach and frowning. "Yeah, I wanna have lunch, where do you wanna go?" Asked Yazeed. "Umm Karam Beirut? I've been craving Lebanese food for a while now!" Said Shaikha. "Do Lulu and I not exist, or what? Yes, sure, as long we eat something!" Leen said. "Okay then, go get ready and I'll get the car started." Said Yazeed while walking away to the garage. We went and brought our abayas from my room, I told Shaikha about the Leen and Bader situation while we were walking she busted out laughing. When we got to Karam Beirut and sat on our table, we looked at the menu, Shaikha suddenly winked at me and said "Bader loves Lebanese food so much! Let's ask him to come over with us!" "Yes sure call him!" said Leen in the most excited tone ever. "Oh yes, it's been a long time since I've seen him!" Said Yazeed. "That would be fun!" I said then busted out laughing. Shaikha called him, and he said he'll be over in 10 minutes and we should order for him too till he gets here, so we did. We ate and so, then I told them I wanted to go somewhere with Yazeed, so it's better if they dropped Leen off at her house. Shaikha agreed and we busted out laughing, then Leen smacked both of our heads and hugged me right afterwards and whispered thank you a billion times in my ears. I laughed and asked her not to act awkward around him cause that would freak him out! I went to Yazeed's car, he was staring at Bader's car, basically at Shaikha, so I snapped at his face and told him "So everyone's whipped about someone and I'm just stuck alone forever!" "Huh? Who's whipped? No what?" he said looking as afraid as a child who ruined his mother's makeup! "HAHAHAH! You have to see your face! Bader and Leen are all into each other, and you're all into Shaikha!" "Watch your words. I'm your older brother don't act like a know-it-all!" he said trying to hide the truth. "Yeah sure, well too bad cause I can hook you up, and you know there's no other way for you two to be together other than that!" I said. "For real? You'll help me?" He said out of excitement "Hmm hahah I was joking, I don't like her that way!" He said trying to hide the fact that he just shouted at my face in excitement. "My god, you're so bad at lying! Yeah, I'll help you! You're my brother, of course I will!" We kept talking about this subject for the rest of the ride, then he said that he'll go to his friend's house, so he just dropped me and left. I went to my room, got into my swimming suit, then went downstairs and swam for 2 hours all by my own, and watched Crazy stupid love afterwards, and decided to sleep, so I layed there for about 3 hours thinking of everything... I wonder how can Leen's father stay all of these years having no wife? While my father has two kids and a wife already, but he went for another one? How could he? I wonder how she looks like... Is she prettier than mom? Ah no way in hell, she must be ugly! But why would he marry her if she was ugly? Come on just cut the crap and sleep! But I can't. Agh I wish I'd be 15 forever! This crap's confusing... So finally the world turned black and I went into my imagination.


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Chapter 1

As I was combing my really long dark brown waves that smelled of patchouli, thoughts kept floating in my head. Why did Leen get freaked out and turned all pale when she saw me laughing with Bader and joking around him last night at Shaikha's? I mean he's only Shaikha's brother! A best friend's brother is like family! She's getting really suspecious and weird! I can't believe she actually rejected sleeping over at Shaikha's cause Bader was going to watch the movie with us! She also left too early! God it pisses me off when my best friend is hiding something from me! What pisses me off more is that we've been so close for too long for her to think that I wouldn't know something's wrong by her facial expressions! I need to know what's behind that girl, I'll call her after I dry my hair. Dad interrupted my so called thoughts and opened my wooden bedroom door saying he'll leave in 30 minutes, and I have to go with him to the airport to say goodbye since he's going to Germany for buisness the next three years, and there won't be any time for him to visit us. He'll be living in hell for three years! I'll seriously miss him... I mean it's not like his other buisness flights! He always goes there for a maximum of two months! It never got to a year! I can't imagine the house without him... I wouldn't have anyone to wake me up then go to sleep just to laugh at me while I get mad and start wining about how it's unfair to wake someone up then go sleep! Okay, so I didn't really have quite a lot of time to dry my hair, so I thought I'd put it in a french braid since it was actually half dry already. I did my hair as fast as I could, wore black tights a grey crop top and plain white slippers, and went downstairs. I saw mom crying and sobbing, so I went there and tried to console her "Come on mom, it won't be as bad I promise, the years will go by with a blink og an eye" I said while trying to hug her, but my mind just rejected the idea of too much love at once. "I know dear, I really know, you just wouldn't understand this" she barely whispered out the words while crying! I just kept silent trying to digest the amount of mysteriousness her sentence held... Anyway, I sat there staring at her for about 10 seconds, and then I got up and went to the kitchen and did myself a white cheese with cucumber sandwich, poured some milk into a glass, and took them with me ready to eat them up! By the time I finished, my dad rushed down the stairs saying he's late and we must go now! I really don't know why does he want me to go with him, but eh it's okay at least I'll get more time with him... I picked up my earbuds and phone, got into my abaya and I went to the car waiting for dad! I wonder why did he ask me but no one else to go with him :/? Why didn't he ask Yazeed :/? He's the 20 year old here! I'm only 15! Agh this family is weird :/... And dad's finally here! He got into the car, asked the driver to head to the airport, then he held my hand and said "Laura, look at you! You're all grown now! I can't believe I'm looking at the same baby I used to carry running around the house and shouting here comes the flying princess" he told me smiling at me "I'm still here on the princess part..." I gave him half a smile and raised my eyebrows playfully. "You always are daddy's little princess." he pinched my cheek which made me feel like a 5 year old all over again. "Well, you must be wondering why I'd ask you to drop me off at the airport, and not anyone else, so to break it off to you. I asked you because there's something I must tell you Laura" suddenly his attitude turned from affectionate to absolutely serious. "Okay, shoot!" I said expecting him to say something stupid like the movies or something as I have a gazillion riyals hidden under my bed sheet, you can take them and do whatever you want! "Listen well Laura, and I don't want you to interrupt me, just listen to me till I'm done talking, and then you can say whatever you want!" "Hm, dad you're kinda freaking me out here hahah? What's wrong?" I said suddenly getting my stomach to hurt waiting impatiently for what my dad's about to say. "Laura, I've been married to a German woman Called Sina, I never wanted to cheat on Anoud, but Sina stole my heart on my buisness trips! I couldn't resist her! Back to my subject, we were married since you were 9! And she's on her 6th month of pregnancy, so I must be next to her! That's why I'm going for three years! I must raise my child well! Please understand my situation Lulu! I know you're too mature for a fifteen year old! I told Yazeed when he was 17, and it made my relationship to him get really tense, and he hates me now! Please don't do the same! It's okay in our religion to marry 4 women, and I'm only marrried to two!" He said in a very regretting tone, his eyes begging me to understand... I pressed my lips hard and just stared at him! After a minute of silence, he finally said "Why aren't you talking Lulu? Don't you have anything to say? Please don't tell me you got mad at me too? Please just understand please Lulu!" he begged. "Hm, good luck with your child." I said sounding as emotionless as I could! "That's all you got to say?" He said in shock "I knew you'd understand I knew it! I love you so much honey!" he pulled me for a hug, I couldn't hug him back, I just felt too disgusted of this! I forced my tears to stay in place till we get to the airport! The rest of the ride was pretty much silent. I dropped him off at the airport gate then I told him I don't want to go down cause I don't feel like seeing alot of  people, I kissed his forehead and said "Take care of my mom, and skype with her every once in a while! I don't want to see her hurt." then gave him my back not giving him a chance to answer. I just wanted to vomit this feeling out of my body! It felt so weird! How could he hide this from us all of this time? How could he do that to my mom? She's probably crying her eyes out now missing him already! How could I ever consider this man a role model? I feel like I don't even know him anymore! I need to stop thinking of this! I got my phone out and dialed Shaikha's number, she answered right away "Hallaww babehh! Supp?" she said in a flirtatious tone. "Um hey Shaikha, are you busy? I'm not really feeling well, I need to get my mind cleared of a lot of stuff! Can you come over to my house for a sleepover or something? I'll call Leen too! We can swim too! Please?" "What's wrong pie? Nah, I'm never busy! Sure, I'll ask Bader to drop me off" she said back into her normal tone. "I'll tell you when you come over, bye" and I hung up then dialed Leen's number. She didn't answer till the third call, "The hell? Why weren't you answering dude? Anyway, Shaikha's sleeping over, can you come too?" "My phone was on silent sorry, yeah sure I'll ask dad!" she said in a sleepy voice "Alright sleepy head, bye" I hung up then asked the driver to stop at Baskin Robbins cause I needed something to cool off the mixed feelings I've got, I took a big scoop of Rainbow Sherbit, then headed home waiting for the girls to come over. I texted Leen that we're swimming too cause I forgot to tell her on the call. She said she'll be over at 3:30, and it's 1:30 now. I sent the driver to bring us sweets, chips, drinks, etc. And I asked the maid to put two air matresses at my room, and get the tanning oil, towels ready by the pool, and clean the pool's bathrooms and stuff. It's 3:00, Shaikha's here, and we're waiting for Leen! Shaikha was waiting impatiently to know what's wrong with me, I told her she has to be patient and wait till Leen's here! She said she'll tan till Leen gets here! I hate tanning, I don't understand why do they and Yazeed love tanning so much! I can barely stand being in the sun, let alone enjoy it colouring my skin, so I was splatting on sunscreen! Leen suddenly ran in with her purple swimming suit on, letting her golden soft waves fly freely in the air! "Dang it girl, lookin sexyyy!!!" said shaikha in her usual flirtatious tone putting her black curly hair into a bun. "Uh, I know I'm sexy, you don't have to remind me" said Leen in a confident tone winking to shaikha. "What? okay, but you know I'm sexier though!" said Shaikha. "Oh oh oh!!! Yalla Leen's here, spill it Lulu, what's with you?" "Akhh!!! You should have forgot by now dude! Okay, so you know I dropped my father at the airport today, right?" "What does that have to do with it?" Said Shaikha. "She'll explain, just have some patience already!" replied Leen. I giggled at their stupidity then told them what happened! They hugged me right away, "It's gonna be okay sweetie! Alot of parents do that, it doesn't mean he doesn't love you!" said Leen, but it made me think how would she know that if her mother's divorced and she doesn't know anything about her but that she dumped them when Leen was 6 cause she fell in love with a Lebanese guy! "Hahahah, I don't care about them anyway! It's adult shit, and I don't wanna talk about it! I'm sure they can handle everything by their own! Anyway, I'm hungry! Pizza or lasanga?" "LASANGA!!!" Shaikha shouted, her eyes widened after the mention of food! "Alright, I'll ask Mary to send it here!" "You know you're in denial, right?" Asked Leen. "I don't care, denial is good for now! What do you wanna drink?" "Mountain dew!" Said Shaikha in excitement. "Alright, you know what's good for you! I want strawberry juice." Said Leen. "Stop being a mom and start enjoying your time dude!" We ate, swam, took alot of pictures, watched Brave, then slept like babies...

The beginning of the journey

Well hello,

I never saw myself writing something publicly, and I was always afraid of going

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